This year has turned out completely different than anything I would have personally imagined for myself a year ago. There is actually nothing wrong with that so far, but I had quite a few goals for myself this year. The first thing on the to do list was to totally REVAMP my business. I was going to rename it. I was going to redesign it. I was going to tell a whole new story. A story that was more closely knit to my heart than the one my sister and I had been telling together. I had figured it was time. It has been about 2 years since my sister left for Oregon and started her own photography business – Lauren Crowston Photography. So with Laurel Isle Photography being solely left in my possession, I felt like it was the moment for my vision to be seen. She still works with me when we book a wedding during the year, but most of the year is me spending time with families and their littles creating their story and sharing my work. It’s different now and I felt it was time to change how things look to actually represent that. Big plans! Big Reveals and then…BABY!
Now our sweet little girl is not mistake, but we definitely did not have her down on the calendar for this year or the following year to be honest about it. However, life is magical and throws things in your path that you must embrace and move forward with. So I have since put all of that revamping, changing and hustling aside to make way for another change and new story to tell – my daughter’s.
It’s been a big process of learning and negotiating. Mostly with myself. I don’t really know how to rest (my feet, legs and ankles bare scares to that fact) and I don’t really know how to say no. I have had to do both a lot recently. I have had to learn to let people invade my space (something that I am still not good at) and realize that everyone enjoys a good baby. I should let them enjoy that. I have had to let myself feel accomplished with what I can actually accomplish every day instead of feeling like I didn’t accomplish as much as I wanted (HARD! It’s hard to not feel behind). Ultimately, allowing myself to be pregnant, literally full of life and not be the hero. Getting my head wrapped around the idea that carrying a baby into the world is enough of a medal as I’ll ever need right now.
So maybe one day, I’ll get back to changing everything, but for now – it’s baby time. I have gone ahead and made some small changes to the Facebook page, and maybe if I find the time I’ll spruce up the blog. Until then, I’ll let me story speak through the pictures I post and the blogs I write.
Below are some lifestyle shots I took in Washington the beginning of this year. It was a beautiful time hanging out with my nephews, playing cards, exploring the woods and surprising my mom with the news on her birthday that we will be expecting in July. Loved every moment of it. <3