Well this has been a week so far. So many things I meant to do and I have not done. I don’t know if it’s because of all the baby feels or if life is just a little nuts right now. I think its definitely a little bit of both. Even though life has been crazy (If you have been reading my most recent posts, you’ll know), there has been such a sweetness in there air. Sure there may have been a quick moment where my husband and I may have been homeless (sarcastic, but maybe not) and there is the fact that my family has also suffered a few losses in the last nine months and even in ths last week, but there has also been such an assurance about life. Maybe assurance is the wrong word. We have a hope. A sweet hope. A hope that the people we lost this year, we will see again and hope that no matter how crazy our life gets (homeless, jobless or whatever it may be) that there is something really good on the other side of those trails. It’s as if we are finally living as if we had already lived through it all.
Here is what I mean – you know that moment you are in a conversation with someone and you are talking about a past situation and at the time you were really super emotional about it. You may have cried, questioned or lashed out in ways you didn’t mean, but now when you talk about you realize all the lessons you learned from that really hard time and you’re at peace with that struggle. That’s how we are living, but now. Right now as we are in it. Do I get stressed somtimes? Yes, but over all, I know that God has it all under control. My husband and I both realize that and its so sweet to be in these really hard moments of death and uncertainty, yet okay and yet hopeful and yet still working together and loving each other and loving the life around us and loving the people around us. We are living as if we already know the answers, but we have none. We just know that someone does and eventually, it will all work out. It’s good.
I am sorry that my posts recently may have been intense or too personal, but as most of you know my background is writing and it’s hard for me to bottle it up and filter. I hope if anything, if this year isn’t starting as planned…I hope you realize that you are not alone.
Thank you for all the love and support recently. I love being friends with you guys on Facebook and getting your messages and comments have been so helpful during this time. I’ll be keeping you all updated.Until then, take a moment to look at this beautiful family. They have so much love for each other and it was so awesome to capture it all.