This life recently has been tough. If you follow me on Twitter or we are friends on Facebook I am sure you have heard my laments. I have been trying to train for a marathon, but have injured both knees, my husband and my child have both come down with that horrible HFM plague which has kept us locked up in the house for the last few weeks, I put in extra hours in at my day job. It’s just been tough! The list could go on and I feel so bogged down with have to’s and so behind on the things that I love. I’ve been slow to posting for the business, answering emails, and working on my new image. I have been slow at getting to all my goals. It’s been a frustrating process.
I find myself on a morning like this one where I have a few hours of free time and I can either answer emails or play blocks with my child. I can either work on my new website or I can go for that 8 mile training run. I feel guilty between doing the things I want to do and not doing things I tell myself I should do. I feel like my life is pounding away on this deadline and if I don’t wake up each morning and meet every invisible deadline then life is going to fall apart.
Then I woke up. I drank some coffee and I realized IT’S NOT GOING TO. If I choose blocks over emails, THAT’S OK. Emails can be done while I am headed to the shower, or making dinner or in bed after my kid goes to sleep. My website can wait! I won’t lose anything if I don’t have it done by tomorrow. I can run. I can enjoy the peace and quiet of the trail. I am slowly realizing that taking care of myself and my family produces more fruit than any “work.” If I do take care of us, I am sure the more productive we will be.
So here is to more playdates, more creative sessions, more naps and choosing what I do with my time then time choosing what I do. <3