These last two weeks have been crazy. I am not sure if it’s just poor planning on my part, but the time I have had at home with my dog and husband have been far and few between. It’s starting to drain on me. Not to mention that my husband will be out on tour for the next couple of weeks, the idea of being alone with the dog for that long is looming. Not because my dog is tiresome. She isn’t, but I am a social introvert. Let me explain. I love to be around people. A small group of people that get me. They are my people. I can count my people probably only using 3 to 4 hands. If one of them is gone, a part of me is gone. It may sound a bit dramatic, but it’s honestly, how I feel. What I don’t like a huge group of people and even if I know all of them. If all of my people got together in my house, I would probably sheepishly hide in the kitchen letting my husband do the entertaining while I had a glass of wine and figure out something to serve as appetizers. In groups of people, I talk little, eat more and hope that my husband tells me soon that it’s time to go. My husband is the complete opposite. While I would love to consistently be around 1-2 people that are my people, my husband would rather entertain the masses for a night, giving 100% and then hide away ALL ALONE (maybe the dog could be included) for the rest of the week. Maybe that’s why he is the musician and I am the photographer.
When you’re musician and you’re on stage for a night.. you have to give yourself 100% to your audience. I see my husband up there and while I would be embarrassed to run around stage like that, he loves it and not only that, but the audience also loves it. Complete strangers pat him on the back, shake hands with him and by the end of the night he has made a dozen or more friends on Facebook. Then when he is done, he reverts to little words, a lot of thinking and relishing in all the time he has completely alone. As a musician you need that time, you need that space and solitude. As a photographer, it’s completely different. You’re not there to entertain, but you’re there to capture movement, emotion, and light. You have to be intimate with those that your shooting and very quickly find some sort of connection, so your subject feels comfortable. That’s why sessions with friends and family are the best because you already have that connection.
Sometimes, you have to make that connection without the familiarity of family or friendship. Take these two littles for instance, Mila and Sapphire. They were full of energy this particular Sunday. They wanted to run, sing, dance and do everything, but take a family picture. My job was not only to capture that intense energy, but also get on their level, find a connection, and so that they could hear me and finally sit down for a group shot (which turned out great). Photography allows me to be myself. It’s kind of the best thing.
I am looking forward to my husband going on tour, but I am dreading the loneliness. As a social introvert, these last 6 months have spoiled me by allowing me to always have one of my own always with me. I guess I’ll just pile up the days with activities with friends and work, so hopefully the next few weeks will fly by. :)’
Thank you, San Family, for a beautiful session. You all were lovely and I am always excited to do a session with you guys!
Till next time,